Self Reflection

Sometimes I just get to thinking about where my life could possibly be headed, and am I doing what I need to be doing to keep it on the right track. I ask myself am I becoming the "young lady" that I want to be--that I had planned on becoming my whole life. Well, I realized, the question I should be asking myself is, am I becoming who God wants me to become? I wish so much to know exactly what I'm going to turn out to be like. Of course, I have my plans for myself, but what is the ultimate plan?--The real plan, God's plan.
His plan is just confusing sometimes. I guess because His reasoning isn't mine. Too many times I ask God, why are you doing this, when He has a perfectly good reason that I just can't wrap my mind around yet. The best things in life are the things I can't understand. The things I couldn't have possibly worked up in my mind to ask God for. The things that don't come until you've completed a maybe not so easy process. I never want to take the easy way out. Not in life, or lovee or anything.
I don't want to taste alcohol, or do drugs--I want my happiness to be the pure joy of the Lord. I want to be pure until I'm married and honor the Lord's temple that was bought for a price. I don't want to harm my testimony by speaking any sort of profanity, or negative words, or thoughts. ("Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen." [Eph 4:29]).I never want to give in to accepting certain lifestyles that the Bible teaches against because the world and even other Christians have come to accept it, but I also don't want to condemn those who do. I never want to avoid being with or in future terms, marrying, the man I love because it is unconventional in some ways, as long as I know he is what God has planned.
As the coming of Christ draws nearer, satan has caused the world to make the right choice the harder choice, in many instances. Never take the easy way out! Do what the Holy Spirit leads you to believe in your heart that is good and right, despite the confusion that the world may cause if you don't stand firm in your beliefs.

"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." [Matt 7:13-14]