I call you Jesus, You're every answer...

I will be the who worships, all of my attention
I wanna be the one Your looking for
Are you looking for someone to love You
Know my heart is with You
I wanna be the one Your looking for


Cause when were finally face to face
All I want to hear You say
Is Ive been the one Your looking for


Cause I call You Jesus, Your every answer
Theres no confusion about Who You are to me
And ill lift my hands to tell what my heart says
A love that goes deeper, not a word can explain

link to "I Call You Jesus--Frontline Worship: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MhBQYGrTQ4Y

New favorite song. I walk around all day singing it. Such a worshipful song...

Anyway, This is gonna pretty much be the most random blog ever.
I feel like so many people around me are growing in Christ, including myself, it's unbelievable. It's awesome to see new Christians growing and more experienced Christians getting closer to God. I'd have to say this has been the worst, best, craziest year (or school year, rather) of my entire life, not that my life has been super long or anything, but you know what I mean.
I feel like I've lost a lot of people over this year (just know when i say year i mean school year specifically). I feel like I've gained a lot of people too...if certain things hadn't happened, i wouldn't have met certain people, and i wouldn't have done certain things.
Everything was planned out to reach a certain purpose...the bad was made into good.
Of course the affects of the bad still linger, i still think about it, and it still hurts...but, everything good that came out of it made it worth it.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." [Romans 8:28]



[pictures from our most recent adventure!]

My most recent revelation has been about my singing. I love to sing, I always have. End of story. Thing is, I don't like to sing for things that aren't for the Lord on any stage. When it's for Jesus, I know if I mess up, it doesn't matter because I'm not singing for the people watching anyway. I can just focus on worshiping and helping others to worship along with you.
That's one of the best feelings ever is when you know you've impacted someone during the music part of worship, to look out and see the hands raised, or the tears, or the joy on someone's face. To walk off the stage and know that I just helped lead that...
Brooks (our pianist on Sundays and the youth band leader--and my bestfriend!)has been my mentor in this area, and other areas as well whether he realizes it or not. He is constantly reminding us to worship when we sing, and to be bold, and it's all for the Lord...not for us, or anyone else. This has pushed me out of my comfort zone over the last year, and I'm glad. His worship is as real as I've ever seen. When he and i and Hannah Grace sing together I can't help but worship because the atmosphere is just so genuine. That's what I believe it is to lead worship--to be so wrapped up in the Lord yourself, that others can't help but want to be the same way and take their own step of boldness and follow your lead.
Im realizing now more than ever, especially since our church and our youth are going out to other places to do the music, that singing isn't a just a talent...it's a calling.
Also, mine and Lindsey's most recent endeavor...cheerleading.
I'm not a cheerleader, end of story.
But, this is becoming more than just a "cheering" thing.
Idk what it is...but, it's different. It's a step out of my comfort zone...
I'm going to have to trust God with this whether I make it or not, and just know I did my best. Some people might say I'm being ridiculously too serious about this whole thing, but like I said, it's more than just about "cheerleading" for me at this point.
But, I think one of the best things about trying to achieve this so far is the new people that I'm getting closer to.
One of them, namely, is Brenna! Sweetest girl i've ever met...she has been willing to bend over backwards (sometimes literally!) to help us. If I make the team, I owe everything to her!
I truly feel like God has put her in mine (and Lindsey's) life for a reason she is honestly one of the most genuine people...i dont know, we have all just kind of clicked, and I think if we all(we all meaning lindsey, shelby, and I since brenna def will!) end up making it (or even if we don't) there will be a great friendship ahead! : )

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." [Philippians 4:13]

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." [Philippians 4:6]

"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." [Psalm 37:4]

I don't want to be on any spiritual highs or lows...I want to be in love with Him the same every day, all day because He never changes. I want to keep the passion for Him and praise Him even when He seems to be silent...I want those around me to see something different in me. I want to be surrounded by those who love Him as much as I do for support.
I want to take Him seriously, so that He will take me seriously too...and i want to be a serious threat to the devil.
lovvvee muchhh : )