so, i wrote this about 3 months ago and it was actually on my facebook...but i felt like it was worth posting again even though i've come such a long way, it still fully applies...especially since i know people who are currently going through the same exact thing that i just got out of. i tried to think of something i could say to them to help, but then i remembered when it was me, nothing anyone said really helped very much. so, i guess the best thing is just to tell what i learned when i was in that position... hang in there : )



wow. what a lesson God is teaching me right now...
to let him take what he needs to, to make me a better person...
The theme song of my life right now seems to be "Bless the Lord"--Laura Story
about how God gives and takes away for our benefit. bc who am i to say what things i need in my life?
Sometimes we may go through something that seems like it's the worst thing that could happen at the time, just to find out how strong we are and that we can actually make it through...contrary to what we may think and say at the time
i truly believe God will never give us more than we can bear. Even when it feels like during the day you're walking around with such a weight on your shoulders, or it may even be so heavy that you dont feel like you can make it out of bed.
but, no matter how many meltdowns we have...God is still helping us through it even when it feels like nothing is changing. He bottles our tears.
...maybe we're having to learn to set our priorities straight. Nothing should be before God. Sometimes we have to be put at our lowest to come back to God on our knees...once we get back to that place, things may get worse before they get better. but, they will get better.
No one should have your whole heart except Jesus because he will never let you down...he will never make you go to that place that hurts the most...guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life.
but, the best part about all these lessons is that im not writing this about how its super fun or anything to have to learn them because its not...im not on any sort of high from it. but, im also being taught to praise him in every circumstance you have to go through. even though its hard, and ill be the first to say i have had one of the worst attitudes about it, at times...and probably still will sometimes...but, im learning. plus, having a terrible attitude about it only makes you more miserable.
it helps me to think of one day at a time. today has enough troubles of its own to start to worry about tomorrow!
thank you God, for teaching me all of this...helping me to gain a little more wisdom and understanding, and making me stronger...even though i have a lonnngg way to go. help me to help others with what ive learned so far...thank you for keeping everything under control even when i feel like its a downward spiral!
God told me to hang in there. so, i intend on doing just that. He is going to help you do the same, always. : )